So Comfortable

So, I am not sure if it's wrong to pull out maternity clothes when you are only 6 weeks pregnant...but I want to start getting progression pictures.  Although, I am accumulating quite a stack of 4-10 week ones, this kid deserves pictures too.  Can I just say that I love elastic waste band jeans.  Who decided this isn't fashionable?

Here you go, 6 weeks yesterday.  I will post in the same outfit, assuming I can squeeze into it by September.  :)

more waiting and watching

We had our u/s today and baby is alive and measuring well.  However, we have a small pocket of fluid (blood) down low in the uterus.  My RE seemed unconcerned and said that it was small and not near the baby, but this is exactly how my last miscarriage started.  I am burnt out.  I am tired of worrying.  I am tired of watching babies grow and die.  I can't do this again.  We have another u/s next Thursday and hopefully the hematoma will be smaller or if the baby is going to die, it will do so soon.  :(

One More Quant

Okay, so after a weekend full of anxiety I called the RE Monday morning to see if I could get bloodwork one last time for piece of mind.  The nurse said yes and i went this morning. 

1536

Up from 141 last Thursday.  I was expecting something around 900 so this is fantastic.  20dpo with my daughter I was around 1470 and 20dpo with my partial molar twins I was 5000.  So, I think it's safe to say I have ONE healthy, non-molar bean in there!  Now, to make it 7 long days until my u/s.

So Far So Good

Well, my HCG has been chugging along nicely.  They want it to double every 48 hours.

Monday-26
Tuesday-49
Thursday-141

So almost trippled in 48 hours.

My first ultrasound is January 26h.  We may or may not see a heartbeat as I will be 5w6d.  If not, I will have a repeat a week later.  If so, my next one won't be for 2 weeks.  I will be holding my breath until then. 

Here We Go Again!!!

So, I thought for sure I was out this month.  Saturday morning I took one last hpt so I could stop the progesterone and it was darker than the day befores.  If it was the trigger it wouldn't be coming back, right?  So then I thought maybe this test had more dye in it or whatever.  Sunday, darker.  Monday, much darker.  Went for betas (hcg-pregnancy hormone level) and it was 26.  I thought that was lower than it should be.  Some websites say 25 is average for that day, but others say 50 is.  Called the RE and went back almost 24 hours later for more bloodwork and it's up to 49.  They want to see it double in 48 hours...it pretty much doubled in 23.5.  :)  That has to be a good sign.  It's still very early and I have been here too many times to relax, but I am so happy to be given this time with another baby.  I have another beta on thursay and as long as it has at least doubled, they will schedule my first u/s for around the 28-29th.  I will be holding my breath until Thursday.  Prayers everyone!!!

Injectibles it is...

So looks like no bfp this month.  I just don't understand what is wrong.  This has always been the easy part.  I am beginning to really doubt that I will ever get to have another baby of my own.  I will never get to hold a new baby and know that he/she is all mine.  I will never get to nurse another little one.  I will never get to hear momma for the first time.  I am really heartbroken right now.  We will give injectibles a chance...but we only have 3 chances at that before we are pretty much out of options.  Due to some traveling Mike has for work in February, we will only be able to give it one shot before hopefully taking a break (one more clomid cycle maybe).

At least I got to see a BFP

So I took a test this morning to see if the trigger shot was gone since it causes false positives...and nope, still getting blaring positive hpts.  Ugh.  I was told 2500mg should be out of my system within 5 days but it's been 7.  Apparantly I metabolize hcg very slowly as we learned when it took 10 weeks to get negative after losing the twins and 6-7 weeks after losing the singleton.  I guess now I just keep testing daily and hoping it gets darker.  If not, I wonder if this will delay my next cycle from starting.  So frustrated...but at least I finally got to see a BFP.  Ugh.

Welcome 2010

I am so thrilled to say goodbye to 2009.  What a nightmare of a year.  I am really hoping 2010 brings much more joy.  7 days until test day...it's gona be a long week!!  Started progesterone suppositories today, yucko.  I really hope this is my last time having to do that.  I would rather have shots than this nasty stuff.