Here I sit waiting patiently to take a pregnancy test. I can technically start testing on Tuesday or Wednesday but am trying to hold out until Thursday. It's hard to be optomistic when I know I should be busy caring for 1 week old twins or celebrating learning the gender of my sweet due in April baby. Last night I made a collage of my children's ultrasound pictures.



The top 2 and bottom left one are my dear sweet almost 2 year old Loralei. The bottom middle is the older of the twins pictured at 8w3d when he/she still was growing and had a nice strong heartbeat that I will never forget hearing. The bottom right is the baby we lost in September pictured at 7w1d but measuring 5w6d as he/she never grew on schedule.

We have been seeing a wonderful fertility specialist here in Kalamazoo named Dr. Dodds. We had all kinds of blood clotting testing done and everything came back normal. He has me on daily baby asprin just in case though. We had a sonohystogram to look at my utuerus and it looked perfect. My uterine lining is great. I am on Endometrin (progesterone) from 3 days after I ovulate until I get a positive pregnancy test or my period. He has me on 100mg of clomid days 3-7 (although I did days 2-6 last month bc that is how we conceived my daughter and the twins). My eggs are growing beautifully and I am ovulating one mature egg between cd 15-18 (which is perfect). Now it's just a waiting game. He said I can do 2 more months of clomid but didn't say what would happen if I am not pregnant at the end of the 3 months. I only hope I don't have to find out.

I would love a baby due in August. Although it would be hot, it would give me the majority of the summer to spend with Loralei and the baby would be old enough to travel by the holidays. Summer would be a perfect time for laboring outside as well, but the birth and the child are something I can't focus on as getting a pregnancy to stick just seems impossible right now.